Following the comments on Mariannes post about bloggers that burn I thought I owed an explanation as a serial blog deleter myself - to be fair I won't lose contact with my friends and have remained as a member of my groups on the whole, my dear friend jenray has kindly agreed to babysit Artemis Art for me for the time being.

Why did I delete my blog?

Certainly not to get attention, in fact one of the reasons I didn't post here is because I felt it would seem like that's exactly what I was trying to do.

I genuinely didn't feel that people would take much notice and I wanted to just go quietly, remaining unsure whether to return to blogging properly or just maintain my friendships and stay as a member of my groups.

I have been with buk now for quite a long time (2 years?) and have burned more than one blog -partly because sometimes I feel I have outgrown them and it's a kind of metamorphosis, a transformation and changing my blog is like beginning all over again which for me is quite nice, necessary even, it's probably just in my nature, i also change houses quite a lot, but not husbands:))

This time there were other reasons - To give the reasons why would not be appropriate, I did have conversations with particular friends about why and was advised to think about it and so, yes, I guess deleting was a knee jerk reaction this time around. It has been a difficult year for all kinds of reasons and sometimes people are unable or unwilling to go public with certain aspects of their lives so I don't like to judge others too harshly and of course my take on this is mine alone I have no idea why others do delete and then leave without a goodbye but I guess they have their reasons, we don't know and can't make assumptions. I am posting here because marianne has asked for explanations and this is mine for what it's worth. I am deeply sorry if anyone felt let down because I deleted my blog -like I say I'm still here although I almost disappeared into the ether until a friend asked me to re-consider -I think to be honest that to assume that anyone would take much notice would seem incredibly arrogant of me, in my mind other people have their own lives to consider and wouldn't necessarily give me or my blog a second thought -and why should they?
In short it has not been a great year, and I'm sure for others to and maybe that is one reason some have gone without warning. I have not been my usual self, there are many things I don't wish to talk about and to be honest I feel like an idiot, a complete prat for deleting yet another blog. But...I know my friends will understand and make allowances for that and forgive me for being so irrational lately. I still keep popping in and making comments on some of my friends blogs, but I can't stay logged in for more than a few seconds although it's been better today so hopefuly this comment will make it onto buk!

Hugs x