Blog Break

My head hurts. Too much going on and I'm just not that happy.

So I'm having a break for a bit.

Back soon.

x

Following the comments on Mariannes post about bloggers that burn I thought I owed an explanation as a serial blog deleter myself - to be fair I won't lose contact with my friends and have remained as a member of my groups on the whole, my dear friend jenray has kindly agreed to babysit Artemis Art for me for the time being.

Why did I delete my blog?

Certainly not to get attention, in fact one of the reasons I didn't post here is because I felt it would seem like that's exactly what I was trying to do.

I genuinely didn't feel that people would take much notice and I wanted to just go quietly, remaining unsure whether to return to blogging properly or just maintain my friendships and stay as a member of my groups.

I have been with buk now for quite a long time (2 years?) and have burned more than one blog -partly because sometimes I feel I have outgrown them and it's a kind of metamorphosis, a transformation and changing my blog is like beginning all over again which for me is quite nice, necessary even, it's probably just in my nature, i also change houses quite a lot, but not husbands

This time there were other reasons - To give the reasons why would not be appropriate, I did have conversations with particular friends about why and was advised to think about it and so, yes, I guess deleting was a knee jerk reaction this time around. It has been a difficult year for all kinds of reasons and sometimes people are unable or unwilling to go public with certain aspects of their lives so I don't like to judge others too harshly and of course my take on this is mine alone I have no idea why others do delete and then leave without a goodbye but I guess they have their reasons, we don't know and can't make assumptions. I am posting here because marianne has asked for explanations and this is mine for what it's worth. I am deeply sorry if anyone felt let down because I deleted my blog -like I say I'm still here although I almost disappeared into the ether until a friend asked me to re-consider -I think to be honest that to assume that anyone would take much notice would seem incredibly arrogant of me, in my mind other people have their own lives to consider and wouldn't necessarily give me or my blog a second thought -and why should they?
In short it has not been a great year, and I'm sure for others to and maybe that is one reason some have gone without warning. I have not been my usual self, there are many things I don't wish to talk about and to be honest I feel like an idiot, a complete prat for deleting yet another blog. But...I know my friends will understand and make allowances for that and forgive me for being so irrational lately. I still keep popping in and making comments on some of my friends blogs, but I can't stay logged in for more than a few seconds although it's been better today so hopefuly this comment will make it onto buk!

Hugs x

Right let's try and understand what makes bloggers burn their blogs?

He was here this morning...

Hi everybody
Does anyone here know why Usksider isn't blogging?
A few of us have noticed that he hasn't blogged for a while.
There is probably some very good reason but it would be nice to know that he is OK.

I've received the following message which I've been asked to post on "Blog Break".

Thank you Lonemum for letting everyone know that you're OK.

Hello Loveys.....Lonemum-as-was here....
Sorry to disappear so rudely and without any warning.....I completely and utterly flipped out over something going on here and went into self destruct mode and the blog got it.......................I actually felt like completely self-obliterating............ but knew that wasn't a good idea..........y'know the one......
Needless to say the great flip out was to do with Tinks................I am ok now....but I'm not sure what is going on in Tink's head .......am kind of thinking "Anything might happen" which is somewhat nerve-wracking....plus I've got to put up two shows this Thursday and haven't finished ANYTHING so have been manically working in between tip toeing round the girl and so on.........
Hope you are all well and I'm thinking of you lots and popping in to have a wee nosey in me tea breaks but not had much head space to know what to say just now..................but realised if I don't say SORRY for disappearing now it might just drift and drift..........
Take care and big love to y'all, I am missing you........and maybe when this week's panic is over I'll come back re-invented......
Lonemum-as-was
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Note to bloggers - please pass this news on!

Has anyone any news of either Kiki or Ed?

Leaving for obvious reasons. It's a shame as I made a lot of friends on here and don't feel I can stay as there is a very sour taste left in my mouth aftger the past few days...lots of love and happiness to my friends

Hello, this is just to say that I have deleted a couple of friends from my blog lists recently and that is purely due to there being no activity whatsoever for a very, very long time, it also has to be said there was never any real connection, nothing personal but perhaps different interests etc, if you decide to start blogging again I would love you to invite me again hope all is well x

This is me time
To do what I gotta do
So please just let me be
I've always been there for you

Yes it's me time
I owe you no apology
You've had nearly all I've got
Now I must be on my way
Because it's me time
I just wanna be on my own
I'll do what's best for me
So I need to be left alone

Yes this is me time
I just need to do some thinking
Some peace and tranquility
You know I won't be drinking
For it's me time
You can't see it in my eyes
I need some time for me
I've always avoided goodbyes

This is me time
I can deal with the physical pain
It can't really hurt me
I think I'm just staying sane
This is just me time
I've gotta think of number one
Instead of everyone else
To undo all the knots I've done

I just need some me time
Do things I feel I need to do
I've nothing left to give
It isn't me this time it's you.
I need my me time
I am trying to make you understand
That it's not easy being me
So with a virtual wave of my hand

this is me time,
time for just myself
I'll be in touch some day
when I'm in better health
This has to be me time